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Sunday, February 13, 2011

There is No Tolerance, Not Even Among Deviants. Because Tolerance Does Not Exist

So here is my predicament.  I am trapped in a relationship that will cost me dearly if I leave.  I do not know if I am in love with this person any more.  Everything this person does makes me despise them more and more.  I am not happy with this person.  When I am around this person I have to retract into my shell to keep me from losing all control of my emotions and breaking down.  When I am at home I feel like I’m going to have a nervous breakdown. The emotional pain this person causes me is far worse than any physical pain I have received, and when the emotional abuse is over the physical starts.  The only people I have to turn to live inside my computer in a fantasy world call the furry fandom.

Then to make it all worse I go to the one place where I can turn too.  The one place where I feel safe, secure, and alive and I get shunned by some of them.  I must really be a worthless piece of trash when even the outcast deviants I associate with feel the need to treat me like a second class citizen.  The emotional damage I receive at home is enough to deal with.  I don't need to emotional traumatized at my safe place too.  It sort of felt like being told you were going to die of cancer, then having the doctor kick you in the nuts.

Maybe one day we will have some Tolerance in this world, if not then maybe us deviants can have a little bit of tolerance in our own world.

6 comments:

Glovey said...

Pretty depp stuff your talking about here! keep up the good work!

DK said...

need to try being happy alone!

littledinobug said...

If you aren't really happy maybe you need to weigh the cost of leaving vs the cost of staying.

KUSHtunes said...

everyone's got their vice/opiate

Erasmus said...

Leave. Seriously. It's going to suck, but it's for the best. It won't get better, and the longer you stay, the more miserable it becomes.

Mr Quimper said...

I agree with Erasmus